The best mom award

Sometimes I post stuff on facebook or Instagram with the hashtag #bestmomaward . Usually after telling the world wide web some mom failure, that happened to me. Like these:

• The time I forgot LittleL was going on a field trip and brought him to kindergarten. Then I had to put him in the car again and follow the bus. It was a great moment when I stopped the bus to pick up my kid. Yeah, super mom.
• The time I forgot to sign BigL up for a track and field competition and then lied to the officials that our plans have changed last minute and can they please let my kid take place (they could not.).
• The time I found out that BigL's sports shoes were three numbers too small and he could barely walk during PE.
• The time I took LittleL's lunch to work with me. I had two lunchboxes (mine and his), he had none.
• The time I had to transport stuff home from IKEA and just put it on the back seat next to BigL. In the first bend, it moved and hurt his eye. He had a black eye for days. (Never happened again. I now ALWAYS make sure stuff is secured!!)
• The time we forgot to buy school supplies and then had to do it on the last day of summer break. (Just FYI, school starts tommorow. I am picking up books today.)

So, somtimes, I feel like a big, fat failure as a mom. There is stuff going wrong, I forget papers or books and sometimes we hurt our children without intention. I always am so sorry and try to make up for it, but these things happen. 

They do not mean, that I don't care or love my kids. They just mean that I am human. Busy with a job and handling two kids and appointments and housework. It means, that sometimes this job is overwhelming and you just cannot keep everything in your head. It means, that maybe you forgot to pick up books, because you were busy crafting or playing with your kids. Maybe you had a bad day at work or a headache or PMS. Whatever might have lead to a mom failure, it does not say anything about how much you love your kids or how good a mom you are.

You (and me!) are doing a great job. Your kids are fed, wear warm clothes, get haircuts and get cuddles and love. You are doing everything right. Failures happen. And believe me, EVERY mom makes mistakes, forgets stuff and is NOT PERFECT. Even if some look like they do.

Have a great day! And yeah to all moms!

Love, Sanna

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The last few days...

Summer break is over soon. BigL is going back to school on Wednesday, first grade will start on Thursday for LittleL.

We do celebrate first day of first grade over here, so I got decoration and cakes on my mind. Plus, LittleL developed some anxiety over his first days at schoo and we really try to help him with that. I do understand though. Wouldn't we all be nervous before a major change??

There are no real plans for the last two days of summer break. Apart from Wednesday evening, when the firstgraders and families will meet at church to get blessings for the coming school year. I am really looking forward to it and I can need any blessings out there.

It will not only be a change for the LittleL, but for me, too. Until summer break, LittleL was a daycare/kindergarten until 4pm. Now, I will have to pick him up at 1.30pm. This usually was the time I had with BigL for lunch, homework, learning and just spend some time together. Or me having a nap. From Thursday on, it will be the three of us. Homework with two kids. Learning with two kids. Not sure about how there will be room for naps. Oh my.

I am looking forward to this new chapter. At the same time, I am wondering how it all will work out.
The school (both schools, actually) are just down the road (with one busy street to cross) and I want LittleL to get confident and safe in traffic, so he can walk to school on his own sometime at the end of the year. It will save time, because I don't have to drive to daycare anymore. It means ten more minutes of sleep. Heaven! (Or a silent cuppa in the wee hours of morning!)

To everybody out there heading a new school year, be blessed. Have fun along the way. Be patient and successful. Work hard and be ambitious. It will be a great year!

All my love, Sanna

Long time no see

Yes, I am still alive. I just needed a break. From blogging and the pressure that comes with it. I often feel like I really have to blog. It has been days, weeks, so I need to write an update. Bullshit. I decided to take a break and let go a bit.

Social media is pretty inspiring to me, but it also contains a lot of room for comparison and sometimes makes me feel less than what I actually am. Again, bullshit!

So, here I am again. With the resolution to focus more on who I am and what I really want. It's kind of a new start. I wanna go back to what my blog used to be years and years ago. Full of colour, fun and life. I wanna share my favorite reads and recipes and stuff about my everyday life.

I would love to see you on that journey with me and to start, I'll let you know what happened around my life in the last two months.

The week before Easter our great-granny fell an broke her hipbone. Yeah, fun times. They were able to fix it without replacing the whole hip and started therapy pretty quickly after the surgery. So me and the kids spent a lot of time in the hospital, which the kids loved as they were treated with ice cream, Fanta and cake in the cafeteria. Granny is 93 years old, but was a real champ with learning how to walk again. She came back home on Wednesday.

For Easter, my big L got some concert tickets he really wanted to have, so the two of us went to see his favorite band and spent a lovely evening together. I enjoy spending some quality time with him, because we hardly see him. Between school and track and field training, he is running wild and free around the neigbourhood. A real boy.

At the end of February, I started Weight Watchers to get rid of all the weight that anti-depressants helped me gain (that and a LOT OF eating!). From day one, it worked like a charm and as of today, I have lost a total amount of 22lbs. Which is freaking awesome. Yeah, me!

Now that spring is here, we spend as much time as possible in our back yard. The flowers are in bloom, the sandbox is filled and I had my first bubbly on my beoved garden swing. Life is good.

See you soon! Love, Sanna

In my world...

... everything is just fine. We used the long weekend for a visit at the zoo, a day in the woods and also some good old nap time. It was the perfect mixture of action and laid back.

I also squeezed in some time to sew and get stuff done for the shop. And I shopped like mad at the fabric market. I found cute new fabrics for Little L and nice stuff for the 2017 calenders I wanna make.

We hardly saw Big L (my big boy) over the weekend. He had a sleep over at his friend's house on Saturday and on Sunday that friend stayed overnight with us. It was fun for them, but now that it's Monday evening, he is sooooo tired. I predict he will fall asleep early today.

I am looking forward to these next days as I am off until Thursday, when I have to work a short shift. I am planning on getting more sewing done and hopefully will be able to upload the new stuff to the shop as soon as we have figured out the problems with my phone. That is SO annoying. More for DH though, who is dealing with it.

I also wanna blog my favorite cookie cut outs recipe for you, so that you can do Halloween cookies soon. Ours are all left by now, which is amazing as we made them three days ago and it was some dozens. They are that good, ya know.

So, have a good start into the (short) week. For us, it's the last week before fall break. I am so looking forward to that.

Love, Sanna